a new chapter

2010-12-28T12:07:00.001+08:00

hey guys. i'll be ignoring this blog or even let it rot. :D
relink me okS!
www.new-memories-life.bs.com

2010-10-09T21:53:00.001+08:00

a post dedicated to him..
its not love anymore.
its more than love.
我爱你。

2010-10-09T09:15:00.002+08:00

最孤单的时候，就是当你在夜晚对自己哭泣的时候。
为了不希望你对我感到厌倦，我只能自己在夜晚哭。
对不起。我没受着我们的承诺。
原因就是不希望有一天你对我说你觉得我很烦。
这一切都是我的错。
是我想太多了。
我依然深爱着你。

2010-09-29T12:59:00.002+08:00

******* *******
*** *** ***
*** *** ***
*** ***
*** ***
*** ***
***
i love you darling.

2010-09-25T18:12:00.002+08:00

have been so long since i blogged.
just gotten my reuslts yesterday.=)
at least there wouldn'e be any supp paper for me. :D
however my GPA is kinda screwed up. =(
gona work harder next sem luhl =(

went down to starhub today and ask for the stocks of iphone4.
sadly i got to wait for like another 1 month - 1.5 month. =(
but is ok. good things are worth waiting. :D

so now.
since results are out, there's no supp paper, its time to relax. :D
hmm... so its time to... PLAY!!
o ya. and also prepare for my shanghai trip.should i bring my lappy???
=(
anyway. that *ahem* is going for the trip too. Zzz
don't like her.
eeeew!
but nevermind.
i'm thr to learn!
it'll be a 7 days trip.
so don't miss me ok! haha.

2010-09-06T11:14:00.002+08:00

My exam officially starts today.
crap.
gona have my math paper later on.
seriously i think my "A" for math is flying.
grrrrrrr.
gona mug like mad these few days and i seriously DONT LIKE IT!.

gona have ckt tomorrow. =(
i hate it hopefully i can pass?D=

dfund hmm. aren't that worried actually.
somehow 80% prepared.

FASC. shit.

dar is currently having exam in school.
me. just finished mugging for my math paper.
time to relax.
if not i'm gona panic till i pee in my pants later. =X
first major exam in TP. =( =( =(

lalalala~ dar dar jiayou!

oooo! by the way.
went out with my darlings during teacher's day rmb?
forgot to blog about sth.
we were actually loitering at the playground beside simei cc.
and i saw that rotten fish. O_Y.
ya. that bitch that backstabbed me like shit.
i saw her and her ah beng bf. -.-
seriously suayyyyyyyy until i nth to say.
the person who stole CO's fund.
who is the bloody treasurer of CO.
pls uh.
the bf seriously eye got stamp.
is ok. anw you guys gona break.
cause she is never serious in r/s.
a girl who toys with boy's heart.
and she only wana get married with richman.
not an ah beng.
unless u're a rich ah beng uh.
than surely u'll get married with her.
wait till u bankrupt and she'll leave u!
ok. i dont want to curse you guys.
but. you'll see for yourself as time goes by.

2010-09-03T10:02:00.002+08:00

YAY! Daddy is back! =D <3
ok.
was pretty sad.
cause i wanted to buy my iphone that day.
but its like out of stock. =(
is ok. i'm gona get it end of this year.

exams are around the corner.
and it totally sucks.
cause i just cant get myself to study for more than 2 hrs. =(
totally sad uh.

went back to changkat on teacher's day.
so happy to see all of those teachers that taught me.
how i wish i could just go back to the past.
i would rather that i'm taking o levels now than poly exam.
is f-king difficult uh.
have damn lots of picture with all my darlings that day. but... ya.
kind of lazy to upload. LOLs.
so you guys can go over to my fb k! =D

2010-08-25T20:22:00.000+08:00

Thanks bro for crashing my life.
I've saved up my money.
Looking forward to next week.
To renew my contract and get my iphone.
If i'm born a year earlier mayb i wun have to be sad over this.
But i'm only 17.
Cant renew the contract with my own signature.
And all thanks to you, mum might not agree in me getting an iphone.
With my own money.
Just an iphone.
I need you to agree in not quarrelling with me.
Dear bro, you have no idea how much i hate you.

2010-08-19T00:22:00.000+08:00

Hmm.
Currently blogging through phone.
Well i cant really sleep now .
Cause i slept 2 hours for my nap.
Really a pig now. :(
So just now i went to work. :)
Got $$. Hehe.
And i can save enough for my iphone. :)
So gona replace this stupid old phone which is like paralysed already. -.-
Miss him so muchhh. :(
But i'm gona see him and nua him tomorrow!! Hehe.
Friday gona go for sco concert.
Cause mr quek open his mouth and ask sy members for this favour def i'll go!!!
Hehe. Give him face ma.

Anyway. Dear senior huiting. Dun be sad already k. I'm just a sms away. :)Remember how you comfort me when i broke with mh? I'll do the same to you too. :) <3 love you always.

2010-08-18T10:30:00.004+08:00

***<3<3<3 **<3<3<3
<3********<3 *********<3>
<3********************<3
***<3 **************<3
***** <3*********<3>
***********<3

loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee him. =)
shit man. exams are near.
and is like wednesday le.
!!!!!!!!!!!
i needa start studying
=(
cnt slack le
ok.
later i studying dfund.
pls be a good gal....

2010-08-16T09:16:00.000+08:00

Totally a lousy gf that only adds on to his troubles.
Sorry.

Found out that sleeping can actually numb all her feelings and sadness.
I guess i'll sleep the whole day today.
Nitex world.

2010-08-15T23:30:00.000+08:00

Bad and Failed gal.
So sorry.

2010-08-12T11:38:00.002+08:00

<3<3 <3<3
<3 <3 <3
<3 <3
<3 <3
<3 <3
<3
MISSING YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3>

its finally holidays!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i've waited for it like damn hell long seriously.
and my blog is rottinggggggggggggggg.

on 10/08/10,
the yog torch relay actually came to Temasek Poly.
YAY.
but i needa go and do things that isn;t fun at all.
-.-
basically i'm rotting there la huh.
took quite alot of pics.
=)

super sian.
1 week of my holidays gona be over soon.
yet what?
i'm still slacking.
grr.
got to wind up my gears and get stuffs going!!!!!!!!!!!
no more playing!!!!!!!
but can play till end of this week luh.
hehehehee.
=D
missing someone terribly. =(

2010-07-31T11:39:00.002+08:00

have been so long since i last blogged.
studying for quizzes like mad and rushing out projects for this entire week.
is totally tiring i swear.

last week's syco concert is a success overall.
but i screwed 2 pieces. -.-
that's bad.
but whatever it is, i heard that we received lots of good comment.
sad to say. i've decided not to join the sept chamber concert this year.
cause of my school matters.
really cant bear to part with syco.
the place where i'm trained ad i could learn so much
hopefully i can get myself in as a syco member again next year. =)
<3<3<3 will miss syco alot! <3<3<3
sept concert! i'll support you guysd definitely!!!
thanks to those loves that came to supprt my july concert!
XD <3<3<3

things hasn't been right for him yesterday.
still cant reach him till now.
really worried.
reply to my smses please

2010-07-17T23:06:00.002+08:00

160610 <3
just cant get enough staring at you.
is just a world of you and me.
mutual feelings with mutual trust and love.

2010-07-10T10:21:00.003+08:00

to him: sorry. just took it like that. =X 080710

snipped my fringe. YAY~~

lunch with sista liang rong. LOLS.

had free tickets from syco to FIR concert yesterday.

ok.

i really dun like that kind of noisy atmosphere.

no more such thing for me seriously.

came out half deaf.

tsk.

went to supper with him. <3

thursday's sectional prac is really boring.

bored bored.

was like gona sleep in class any moment.

wanted to skip effcom oso.

stupid brenda du wan. tsk.

got my reuslts. was superrrrr happy!

report writing : 14/15

reading test : 13/20 (was like hum tum one)

met him up for ice cream!! XD

tuesday.

NO FASC.

like the best day we ever had.

went out with him for dinner. XD

monday syco prac was superherb.

nice. =)

meet up with him. <3

2010-07-04T09:46:00.002+08:00

omg.
is like sunday agn?!?
dear. tomorow we'll have school again.
weekends just passed so fast!!!
had totalley burned my saturday doing fasc.
like wtf?
fasc is seriously killing me.
met him on tuesday, thursday, friday.
so we went out and slack.
one of the days we saw XIAN XIAN!!!
but i forgot which day alreay.
it always ended with sweet hugs except for 1 day. =(

to xian xian:
must stay strong k?
i'll be here for you no matter what.
and just forget about what zhao wang said.
he's totally a jerk k.
i'll be your listening ear when and will give you hugs when you need it.
=) <3

going to diana's house todaay!!!!
gona see elena, stellie and zx!!!!!!!
omg.
so excited.
o ya. must not forget to bring down their present. =)

going to have dinner with elena hy and him. =) <3

2010-06-29T23:08:00.002+08:00

past few days was good.
erm.
wedding dinner is nice.

yesterday had syco.
woo.
had lots of good comments on june concert.
also quite a relaxed prac for yesterday. <3

time with him was also superrrrr nice.
time just pass so fast .
didn't even stare at him enough. =(
din get hugs today. =(

had dfund labtest. aiya.
easy. peanuts.
sure A already. XD

crap. missing him so fast.
my batt is running low w/o seeing him. >.<

2010-06-26T23:05:00.002+08:00

yay!
saturday!
yesterday had a sweet day with him. =)
supposingly to go out to the beach.
but its raining quite heavily.
so we ended up going to his ouse to slack
. =)
at first was quiite bored.
and i really crap alot.
seriously.
after that had a heart to heart talk with him and i get to know him more and better.
it seems that we're getting damn attached to each other.
and we know its not a habit.is attached. =)

today.
went down to tamp with him.
suposingly to get my phone.
but dumb me.
when down to nokia shop happily w/o my ez link card.
Zzz
going down tomorrow.
so ya. can see him again. =) <3

and. and his hugs really is the best medicine on earth. XD <3

2010-06-26T00:24:00.001+08:00

actually i had so much to say.
bt... i shall say it next time.
i duno.
confused?
bye world.
i'll get under my blanket now.
nitex.

2010-06-23T23:43:00.002+08:00

yesterday.
lukas, rj, ian, jieming etc etc.
came down to tp to dine with us!!!
<3 you guys super much.
you guys are just so damn awesome!
and i had dinner with my awesome guy. <3

today.
finished school early!
so went to eat with xueting and brian ho. =)
CORN SOUP!!!
finally cleared my cravings. XD
got all my results la.
=(
as usual.
pass 3 failed 1. Zzz
FASC!!!!!!!!! I HATE YOU!

tmr.
diana and zx coming down tp!!! <3
friday come faster. i miss him already!

2010-06-19T18:09:00.002+08:00

just finished my fasc proj. =)
thanks jordan for helping!!! <3
left with some minor stuffs like Dfund.
ya
crap.
next week school is reopening!!!!!!!!!!!!
o no...
results should be out by next week.
first attack - fasc.
can cry already.
cause is like confirm fail?
aiya.
i don't want school to start!!!!!!!!
=(
anw.
had some unexpected news.
this yr's syco chamber concert i actually got to perform 4 pieces.
so is like kind of happy!!!
cause last yr didn't manage to go for the september concert.
XD
yesterday's concert was terrible.
seriously.
missing someone terribly.... <3

2010-06-17T11:13:00.002+08:00

so i just came back from CO camp.
lols. its totally a laughing camp can.
cause i have been like laughing 2 days consecutively.
and my muscles no hurts alot.
but its quite fun overall.
=)
well done seniors!

so today i really got to finish my school work chop chop.
cause got to go for mass 4E gathering later.
and tomorrow have to go down for a CO concert at 4.

someone is sick <3 =(
recover soon.....

2010-06-14T10:18:00.003+08:00

ADVERTISEMENT FROM SANCHE!!!!!!!
*** ARTSPERE will be having a concert on the 27 june 2010. the concert will be held at the artshouse on 7pm. Tickets available at $18 and $22. People who are interested please inform me!!!
Its a quality orchestra conducted by Mr. Quek Ling Kiong! do not missed it!!!

ok. done with the advert.
that day didn't blog much.
so i shall blog more today.
ok. i went out with jordan on thursday.
is like our first meet up after so many years.
=)
went to watch KARATE kid.
its just damn awesome!. XD
maybe its awesome cause i'm watching with a awesome guy. (L)
so after that we went down to bugis to shop. asically shopped for nothing.
but he's nice to accompany me despite knowing i'm there for nothing. XD
after that went down to the arcade.
played bishi bashi and alo other games.
we played alot. seriously.
tiring.
played guitar hero.
my fingers are really pain after we finished the game. XD
in total we had lots of fun!!

fri.
went to work.
came back with jordan accompanying till @2+am. XD
wanted to go simpang bedok.
but its too far.
so we ended up buying cup noodles.
so he bought alcohol and almost crashed in my house. hahaha. (L)

sat morning.
he came to keep me accompany again.
so we were watching ths super funy movie on his lappy.
XD
ate macdonald's for lunch.
left house at around @.30 for wrk.
and he's nice enough to send me to my workplace.
met up with him again for dinner at fish and co.
=)

sunday.
haiya. grandma and bro is back frm malaysia.
my peaceful life is gone!

i have this fish story to share.
one day a boy went to the lake to fish.
he saw this fish, and he really like it.
the fish saw him too.
and intend to have him as the owner.
so it swam to the place where the boy sat.
and kept on swimming infront of him.
so in the end the boy caught the fish.
they had so much fun together.
and one day, the boy let the fish go.
cause it didn't want to trap the fish in the bowl.
but the fish don't mind as long as it can be tgt with the owner.
the fish was so sad. it kept on swimming at the place where the owner caught it.
hoping that the owner would notice it.
but the owner ignored despite loving the fish alot.
in the end, the fish gave up and move on in finding another owner.
moral of the story - do not let go things that you feel that's precious.
cause once its gone, it'll never be back.
just like the fish that swam away, it'll never swim back to the owner again.

2010-06-12T23:05:00.002+08:00

i only know the feeling of doting people.
finally i get to know the feeling of being dote.
but is it a good thing?

2010-06-08T17:37:00.000+08:00

I'M BACK BLOOGING AGAIN!!!

super lots of things had happened last week.

first. would like to thank Ming hao, mei xian, zhao wang, brenda, bin han, lance, xue ting for celebrating my birthday with me. <3 you guys are awesome.

my birthday this year is a memorable one. seriously. cause there's you guys.

and thanks for the wishes by all my friends on facebook. <3

last week syco was having intensive practice.
and i seriously love it TTM!
its tiring of course.
but i'm seriously enjoying myself.

i'm just so attracted in seeing him conducting!!! XD

so finally its the performance day!!!! =)

was pretty excited.
spent like half an hour styling my hair.

performance was ..... average. =(
mr quek's face was like not happy after the concert. =(

anyway. the whole thing ended like super awesome. =)

took a couple of pics!

cello and bass section rox TTM!!!!!!!!!!! <3<3<#

sunday.

had a meeting with some P6 friends.

had lots of fun.

but kind of sad that jacqueline didn't make it. =(

went to pooling. but i didn't know how to.

den beloved xuan yu and liang rong actually teach me.

after awhile i kind of got bored.

so i went to arcade with pamela to play bishi bashi. HAHA. super fun!!!

ok pics time again!!. =)

o ya last but not least. SYCO will be having another concert on july 25th!

theme is New palette Of Sounds! there's super nice pieces.

come and support ks!!!! <3

2010-05-31T16:31:00.000+08:00

just backed from malaysia this morning.
have thought lots of things over the weekend.
managed to think through somethings.
managed to let go certain feelings.
somehow, somethings that i felt that its important isn't that important to me anymore.
i'll stand up at the exact point where you made me fell.
i came back sorting out all my thinkings.
taking you as a normal friend and not a boyfriend anymore.
we broke for almost 1 month and i admit that i'm still treating you like a boyfriend even after we've broke.
still there concerning you.
still there thinking for you in everything.
from today onwards i will not be doing all these stuffs anymore.
i've cried for 1 month.
and i felt that its enough.
of course i'll still think of you when i see couples being sweet to each other.
and of course i'll envy them.
but if you want us to be seperated when we're still loving each other i've got no comments.
cause i know 1 day my feelings for other boy will grow.
and 1 day my feelings for you will fade.
just that i don't know when this day will be here.....

2010-05-28T10:35:00.000+08:00

nth much...
got back all my quizzez results.
and i'm totally not satisfied.

math:    17/20 (full marks gone cause of careless mistakes!)
defund: 15.5/20 (supposingly to get 16.5 but its due to careless again! and my A flew. )
ckt      : 25/50 (just on the dot. fuck.)
fasc     : 15/50 (flunk it like shit!)
effcom : 13/15 (still ok)
writorial: 14/20 (second attempt somemore. (screwed anyway)

argh...
and term test is next week siol.
f**********
yes. its a wake up call for fasc.
but i cant find the pest year term test!!!!!!! GRRRRR.
my ckt is like...... Zzz
got to mug during the hols already. no joke.
violin exams are around the corner too.
scales, sight reading totally not prepared!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
o no...
next week is term test.
its syco performance too.
i got to go back to SCH everynight for prac.
that mean i only have 6 hours to mug for term test each day.
can't afford to sleep anymore.
NO!!!!!
and my brain. stop thinking of the imposibble.
teacher is right.
i cant afford to collapse at this point of time.

2010-05-21T21:43:00.000+08:00

hasn't been blogging for a few days.
first thing.
this week was quiz week.
high chance of passing ckt and defund.
but my A simply is gone
fasc.... i think i flunk it.

this week was rather tiring.
esp wednesday i didn't even sleep properly.
was chionging my presentation and redoing my research journal.
studied ckt till like 2?
thursday morning woke at 7...
went to school.
screwed up my ckt paper and my A flew.
screwed up my presentation too.
mum says it might be because of lack of sleep. =.=
got to redo next week. crap.
thanks to brenda, mei xian, zi xuan, kenneth, bin han, and faizul for their support and encouragement for next week redo presentaion.

today had a nice day with zhao wang and xian xian <3<3<3
went to watch shrek.
really nice!! XD
finally have a day to relax.
but got to mug soon.
cause term test is coming.
=(
i'm going older soon.......

2010-05-15T21:41:00.000+08:00

crap. next week is quiz sia. =(
anw. i think i'm starting to let go le ba.
however somehow still feeling abt jealous cause i saw that he's talking to other girls.
ya.
but i know it got nothing to do with me anymore.......

2010-05-09T12:40:00.001+08:00

say frankly, if i'm not sad than i would be inhumane.
just cried while playing violin.
totally couldn't concentrate on my studies.
cause everything that i'm thinking now is our past.
all the hugs and kisses.
don't dare to listen to emo songs.
cause i know i would cry.
i don't want to cry. but i cant stop.
i miss him dearly.
but i know i got to let go....
its time.....

gona meet mx and zx for dinner later. =)

2010-05-08T15:35:00.000+08:00

i'm back!!!
yep.
i just broke with him.
hope he'll be happier.
but you guys need not worry about me ok!
cause he'll still be my bestie.
he'll still be my brother! =)
and he'll still be there when i need a shoulder. XD

yyup.
next week is math quiz. o dear.
cnt play already. =(
10% sia!!!!!!!
okok. mug mug mug.
tomorrow i'm going out with my xian xian and zx.
=)
cant wait to see both of them.
tomorrow is definitely gona be havoc
cause 3 crazy women is going out!!!!!!! XD

2010-05-08T00:23:00.000+08:00

today is CCN day.
there's jam and hop in TP just now.
sadly, i'm not able to make it cause of the mother's day concert.
i'm sooooo gona go for the next jam and hop. SERIOUSLY!
cause i miss so much dancing with nabil!!! hearts!!!<3<3<3
and jam and hop is the only time where i can officially go crazy. XD

took a couple of picture during CCN today.
shall upload tomorrow.

today's concert is totally fabulous!!!!!!!!!
omg....
today Mr quek cracked so many jokes....
aww....
sudden;y just feel like going up to him and hug him!!!!<3<3<3
ok. shh shh. he's old enough to be my dad. =X
ya. but he's so great .
and i missed him sooooooo much.
cause there is no syco these 2 weeks.
i can't wait for the next practice.
i'm soooo looking forward to the intensive practice at june.
cuse i get to see him everyday!!!
XD
looking forward to seeing him on 17th may!!!
=) <3<3<3

what a happy day......

2010-05-06T23:30:00.000+08:00

finally got over my long day.
looking forward to tomorrow!!!!
tomorrow will be going for the mother's day concert with my mum. =)
ya.
so today i went for the sectional practice for CO.
was alright afterall.
at least is wasn't as boring as dazu.
but so sad.
i missed the changkat gathering. =(

anyway.
ya. i'm having a cold war with him.
but i feel that is no kick.
cause i'm ignored too many times.
so i'm too season to it.
ya. don't talk than don't talk.
but i dont know why...
i thought i cannot take it anymore.
i thought i would beg him to stop ignoring me.
but miracally, i felt nothing anymore today.
yes i miss him.
but not like last time, where i want him back so badly.
so happy that've made this step!!! =)

49 sweet things to do to your partner

2010-05-05T21:47:00.001+08:00

1. Back rubs/massages.

2. French Kiss.
3. Whisper to each other.
4. Skinny dip.
5. Hold hands.
6. Buy gifts for each other.
7. Roses.
8. Find out their favorite cologne/perfume and wear it every time you're together.
9. Kiss at every chance you get.
10. Lightly kiss their collarbone and their jawbone just below the ear, then whisper I love you.
11. Hugs are the universal medicine.
12. Say I love you, only when you mean it and make sure they know you mean it.
13. Give random gifts of flowers/candy/poetry etc.
14. Tell her that she's the only girl you ever want. Don't lie.
15. Spend every second possible together.
16. Tell her that she doesn't have to do anything she doesn't want to. And mean it.
17. Look into each other's eyes.
18. Very lightly push up her chin, look into her eyes, tell her you love her, and kiss her lightly.
19. When in public, only flirt w/ each other.
20. Put love notes in their pockets when they aren't looking.
21. Buy her a ring.
22. PDA = Public Display of Affection.
23. Take advantage of any time alone together.
24. Tell her about how you answered every question in math with her name.
25. Let her sit on your lap.
26. Lips were made for kissing. So were eyes, and fingers, and cheeks, and collarbones, and hands, and ears.
27. Always hold her around her hips/sides.
28. Hold her hand, stare into her eyes, kiss her hand and then put it over your heart.
29. Unless you can feel their heart beating, you aren't close enough.
30. Do cute things like write I love you in a note so that they have to look in a mirror to read it.
31. Break every one of your parent's relationship rules for them.
32. Make excuses to call them every 5 minutes.
33. Even if you are really busy doing something, go out of your way to call and say I love you.
34. Call from your vacation spot to tell them you were thinking about them.
35. Ride your bike 8 miles just to see them for a few hours.
36. Ride home and call them.
37. Tell each other your most sacred secrets/fears.
38. Brush her hair out of her face for her.
39. Hang out with his/her friends.
40. Learn from each other and don't make the same mistake twice.
41. Everyone deserves a second chance.
42. Make sacrifices for each other.
43. Really love each other, or don't stay together.
44. Let there never be a second during any given day that you aren't thinking about them, and make sure they know it.
45. Love yourself before you love anyone else.
46. Dedicate songs to them on the radio.
47. Fall asleep on the phone with each other.
48. Stand up for them when someone talks trash.
49. Never forget the kiss goodnight. And always remember to say, "Sweet dreams."

2010-05-05T20:11:00.000+08:00

i love today.
cause i finally get to go home early from sku!!!!
tomorrow is gona be a long day again.
from 9 to 4. =(
was almost late this morning la.
the bus only comes at 8.50!!
and my class starts at 9. grrrr.
wads more.
2 bus came together.
i'm so pisses!
i hope on to the slower bus.
the bus driver drove so slow!!!!!!!!!!
slower than the tortoise that's walking la. gosh.

i reached school at 8.59.
ppl infront me is like walking so slow.
chiong pass them.
went to meet brenda at reach class at 9.02.
phew. not late.
the good thing is there's 15 mins allowance.
and today is tat nah nah period.
if i reached at 9.16 i'm dead.

tomorrow will be having CO sectional.
i miss mr chua!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
shit.
all the quiz and tests are coming soon.
study study study!!
there'll be effcomm quiz tomorrow.
i totally don't know how to study.
seriously. Zzz.
and i'm not done with my wrtoral project. shit.
gona do now. =)
toodles~

2010-05-04T23:12:00.001+08:00

today school is like a damn longgggg day.
ya. i slept in FASC. =X
cause its super boring. =)
went opp school with my clique for lunch.
they wanted to eat at KFC.
so we went there perspiring.
and there's no place. =.=
so we went down to macdonald's.
its super packed la!!!
so we end up eating zu chao.
=.=
and is hell warm.

had defund lab.
forgot to bring my breadboard to school.
so i told my teacher that my dog was so hungry that he mistook it as a bread. =)
ok. stupid.

i'm sssssssoooooooo not looking forward to this friday's ccn day.
i'm only looking forward to friday's mother's day concert.
=)

i'm just back from violin lesson.
argh....
2 months left.
2 BLOODY MONTHS ONLY!!!!
pass pass pass . PLS PASS!

baby is too busy to sms me i guess......

OOO AND JOKE OF THE DAY!
me: KENNETH!!!!!!!!! YOU NEVER ZIP SIA!!!!
him: "look down at his pants"
me: where you looking?!? i'm saying that you didn't zip ur tool box!
me: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

2010-05-03T22:52:00.000+08:00

had school today.
was released early.
so went home to bathe, eat and have a short nap.
went back to co with my cello.
and i realise i'm the only 1 bringing my own cello.
=.=
went through fei tian.
the condctor sat down there for 1 hour before starting the CO.
=.=
pro. he can sit there for so long without talking.
fei tian was relatively easy.
but......
ok nvm.
later people say i arrogant.

i suddenly miss syco.
i'm so gona join syco next year.
that is what a real standard CO is.

2010-05-02T10:13:00.000+08:00

woke up kind of early today case i cant really sleep.
my heart aches even when i'm asleep.
really. its very pain.
everytime i on the phone to see if you've smsed me, everytime is a dissapointment.
i know you wouldn't sms anymore.
i don't know what does this mean.
is it you want to break?
i didn't want to say hall those words to you, but you forced me to say.
now that i've say you're treating me this way.
i know you wouldn't sms me anymore.
just that i can't take the blow.
as in....
i tried so hard to prevent you from ignoring me.
but now, you're still ignoring me.
wat am i to you?
you said you understand me.
but do you really still understand me?
i'm just so disheartened by your act.
if you want to ignore me, can you at least tell me what i've done?
you have no idea how hurtful is it to wait for your sms.
tears are just like my 3 meals these few days.
i know i got to let you go now.
before i break with you, i just want to know what i did.
i want to know what i did to receive such treatment.
what i did that you wana break with me.

if only tears could bring you back to me,
you would have been brought back.
cause i've been crying so much and so hard.
its really dificuly to fake a smile out of my face.
but i still got to do it.
you said you love me.
but you bear to torture me ths way....
is this still love.................................................................................

2010-05-01T22:37:00.000+08:00

went out shopping with my family today =)
bought like damn lots f things.
bought new water bottle and all that. =)
felt abit better after crying out while bathing.
thanks to darling mei xian and those friends that hav been cheering me up.
don't worry. i'll be alright and will go crazy together with you guys again on monday!!!!

to him:

how i wish i could really mean what i said.
how i wish i could really find another better guy.
but sadly, i cant bring myself to do that.
i initiated to talk to you.
you ignored.
i initiated to apologise.
you ignored too.
i'm the one that's hurt.
but why are you the one ignoring me.
what i did to deserve this?
don't worry.
from today onwards, i wouldn't be distrbing you.
i wouldn't be contacting ou till you contact me. =)
i know you need your time to heal your wounds.
wait till you need me than you sms me.
i'll be there for you. =)
hope that you can heal your shattered heart soon.
i'm sorry for breaking your heart.
so sorry.
but no matter where i am or what i do,
my main thing is i wat you to be happy.
no matter what, i'll still love you as much as before.
i'll miss you loads this few days.

love you.

2010-04-30T17:29:00.000+08:00

using my lappy to blog. yay.
its finally friday.
not sure to be happy or sad.
happy cause i do't need to go to school for 2 days. =)
sad cause another week has past and gr8 exam is getting nearer and nearer to me. sad.
hadn't been practicing eh.
got to chiong.

school these few days was alright.
just that i had alot of question marks when the lecturer is talking.
somehow i prefer the classroom way of learning and not lectures.

writoral have been a big thing to me recently.
cause projects are never ending.

in school.
always crazy. =)
somehow got addicted in touching faizul's hair.
and i start to discover cute guys in my class. =)
haha.
i love my clique- Bin han, kenneth, Lance, Brenda. =)

had lunch with my beloved xian xian just now. <3<3<3
zhao wang is funny.<3

and baby is ignoring me again for his work. well done.

~~as long as it makes you happy.~~
~~i don't mind doin anything for you.~~
~~just like suffering in silence now, just for you to concentrate on your studies.~~
~~every act has a price to pay.~~
~~and my price for steading with you is to suffer in silence.~~
~~cause i know you wouldn't coax me.~~
~~or maybe is really like what you told me yesterday.~~
~~you're too lazy to bother about me.~~
~~this few months i've been keeping all my feelings from you.~~
~~2 years may seems short.~~
~~but to a person who is suffering alone like me is long.~~
~~i trie to understand you, that's why i kept so much things from you.~~
~~but you know what?~~
~~i really wish that you could see this blog and know what i'm really thinking.~~
~~but i know you wouldn't.~~
~~thr most hurtful things is that you are lazy to bother about me.~~
~~is alright.~~
~~i'll ry to accept all this shit that you're giving me.~~
~~i should really find a better one.~~
~~cause i believe i should be treated better and not like a piece of shit.~~
~~on the surface i'm crazy.~~
~~on the surface i'm happy.~~
~~but whenever i'm alone, another side of me comes out.~~
~~i'll stop pestering you like before.~~
~~so that you can concentrate on your work.~~
~~so that you can pump in more love and time to your books.~~
~~if you wana know what i'm up to now.~~
~~i can only say im exploding soon.~~
~~for your question that day.~~
~~yes.~~
~~i was angry.~~
~~i told you no.~~
~~cause i know you wouldn't bother coaxing me.~~
~~i gave you so much, yet this is what you're giving back to me.~~
~~great thanks to you.~~
~~cause i've realise somthing.~~
~~even though i don't look good.~~
~~i realise i'm kind of devoted.~~
~~i realise i can be treated beter by better guys out there.~~
~~if you're not gona change your attitude towards me, i'm going to change my soon.~~
~~not changing to the good way, but changing in the bad way.~~

2010-04-28T22:01:00.002+08:00

yo.
yea. i didn't study again. =(
i've completed my ckt homework.
tomorrow's gona be like writoral presentation and i hope i'm not gona screw it..

yeah.
my CP was cut of by D fund lecturer today.
cause i didn't do my tutorial work.
i happily thought i've done tutorial when its RQ. Zzz
stupid me.
marks get deducted for nothing.

supposedly to be a short day today.
but there's this enrichment workshop for us to attend. =.=
waste my time.
only the making of airplane is fun.
other than that-boring.
i'll let the pictures and video do the talking. =)

first airplane is kinah's group airplane.
second was my group. which is utter failure. Zzz.
nice.

anyway.
our lecturers have problems with their simple pronunciation.
had this scientist name called kirchhoff.
and brenda said he pronouced it as kill chof.
i was laughing so hardly with josh.
and that voltage sauce. LOLS. inside jokes. nvm.
that's all.
i hope i wouldn't start tearing again.
gurt once again.
=( bye.

~~i thought i've accepted that i'm aren't your first priority.~~
~~now i've realised that i have not accepted.~~
~~just that i'm immuned to your act. haix.~~
~~hope you can stay happy with your books always.~~

2010-04-27T20:08:00.000+08:00

i'm back.
had school yesterday and today.
ya. boring mugging life.

he's having tuition till 11. yes. i miss him.

ate at the IT school today.
the food is seriously better than engine school.
no wonder people say engine school have the worst food. =X

bought my lapy on sunday already.
ya. kind of happy.
finally i'm owning a lappy.
need not share that ass desktop with my bro anymore.
=)

supposedly tomorrow is a short day. from 9 till 12.
but there is this enrichment class. =(
kenneth and jason are not going eh.
they'r like tempting me to skip. =(

that day went out with baby to wach ice kacang puppy love.
nice movie.
but i wasn't really into the movie.
was disturbing baby all the while . =X

i'm tired.
wana sleep.

o ya.
MX REMINDED ME OF THAT HUNK I SAW THAT DAY!!!!!!
omg... that kind hearted hunk.......... aww.....
my gosh. my heart is melting for him again...
I MISS HIM LOADS!!! i wana see him again ..... sob.
if i were to see him again i'll go up and ask for his facebook add this time!!!!
hope he s single!!! haha. =X
k la. but i still love my babyboy la.
i don't get to see my babyboy everyday eh.
need some guys to entertain my feelings ah. LOLS!

anted to study.
but i think i'm gona sleep soon.
i'm real tired.
=)

2010-04-25T12:18:00.000+08:00

hi.
feeling quite down these few days.
even though i'm going out with baby later.
haix.
i don't know how to make him happy.
how cani make him not sian.
his reply to my sms is never more than 10 words.

i cherish our relationsip, yet he don't seems to bother about it.
he's giving me this kind of contradicting feeling.
he's scared that i would get snatched by my classmates.
but he never seems to even concern about me.
nvm...

i saw the speeding car.
i puposely walked slower.
than was pulled back by a pedestrain.
haix. he din even know what i'm trying to do.
he just pulled me back...
next time don't be so kind hearted le can.

if 1 day i really suceeded, i hope u'll learn something from it.
treat other girls with proper care.
don't torture them anymore ok...
if my d____ allows you to treat your next girlfriend with care i will do it..
treasure your next gal...

i'll still stay happy infront .
i'll still stay strong.
i wouln't let u see the tears behind my laughter anymore......
i'll bear. i'll tolerate till my max.

2010-04-23T16:23:00.000+08:00

its been a few days since i last blogged.
this week is the first week of school.
everything went out fine, except for the rumours going out between jason and i.
i hate those rumours i got to admit.

this week's lesson are mostly covering on sec4's work.
so everything is still fine.
there's project already. =.=
as well as some homework.
yup.
FASC is boring.
no joke.
the lecturer seriously don't know how to teach.
he talk so slow and seems unprepared for the lesson.
and the time past so slowly in his lecture.
i love lecturer effren.
he's a good teacher and he simplify everything just to make us understand.
<3<3<3
have been hanging around with those chinese guys in my class.
ya.
they're funny.
especially joshua who kept on making that barking sound.
the barking sound is stucked in my head.
yesterday had writoral.
had an indian lady as our lecturer.
her wearing is seriously obscene.
seriously.
can u imagine i got to see her obscene wearing for 1 semester?!?
she started off by talking so much crap and guess what.
i was so bored that i was drawing songebob and patrick at the back of the class. =)

supposedly to have AEL camp today.
but i skipped. =)
ya. i just don't wana go.
and i'm hell sick now. sh!t.

2010-04-17T10:01:00.000+08:00

i'm back! =)
continue with my third day.
we had lots water games.
shampoo our hair at school vacinity.
it was fun afterall. haha.
so we were competing with all other 4 empires.
and zadaz got first!!!!!!!!!!!!
all the GLs teared. =)
<3<3<3

tuesday.
went to the syf performance.
results is out. not sure to be happy or sad.
after that went to sakure to eat with cher and steph.

wednesday.
orientation.
saw my new classmates.
<3 them all!!
had mass dance.
and i partnered with kenneth!!
he's so cute!!!!!!!!
i'm so gona get him as my dance partner for every dance. =)

thursday.
joined some olmpiad thing.
waste my time.
had another set of friends.
i get to know nabil and enlai.
and i forgot other names.
=(

these girls are all from my class!!!!!!!!!

my olympiad group mates. HEARTS!

friday.
had our regatta.
which we lost to business school again. =(
haix.
we seems to lose everything to them.

2010-04-12T12:31:00.000+08:00

hi guys!
i'm back from my wonderful camp. =)
ok. it gona be a seriously damn long post.

first day!!
first day was totally disastrous.
ya.
the only lucky thing was that i'm with the same group as my bimbo (patricia) and bitch (estelle) =)
ok. so it was boring.
ice breaking games.
met some bitches. which i seriously don't like.
was in same group with this P2 friend.
estelle recognised her too.
cause she was from park view. =)
yeah. and both of us hated her.
she is so hell bossy.
anyways.
we ran round tampinies central like crap.
yes. so first day was so tiring.
went to bathe at about 10. =)
didn't really slept well.
was chatting quite alot with bimbo and bitch.
so only had 3 hours of sleep.
before my sleep i get to know 1 friend. chen yun.

SECOND DAY!!!

here's where the fun is.
we learnt the hand sign song and tp's school song.
after that had mass dance with dean.
he is super funny la.
seriously.
than we had the performance night.
ok. i'm in the empire called ZADAZ!!!
and my sub empire is ZADEN!!
ya. so the whole of zadaz have to come out with a performance.
everything was nice.
seriously.
had lots of fun with our GLs.
our GLs have lost their voices.
we saw them drinking bottles of coughing syrup.
but despite loosing their voices, they kept on trying to shout at us just to let us hear them. thanks GLs.
we love you. <3
ya. and for these, the ZADAZ made a cheer for the GLs which made them cry. =)
the meals provided was nice.
and also. i saw my OBS friend! Zheng yuan. he's my bamboo. =)
saw isabelle too. hearts hearts!!!
and i made another 2 friends. JERENE AND LIANG YING.
ya. they are crazy ppl. so of course i went crazy with them.
at night. FINALLY we get to bathe.
it was pretty late.
and i was waiting for like 1 hour for the toilet.
and i get to know this tom boy girl su hiang.
she's damn damn damn cute.

shall write my third day in next post. =). gtg. toodles.

2010-04-06T11:33:00.001+08:00

YAY!!!!!!!
i've finally changed to a new blogskin!!!
was so bored of the previous blogskin u know.
and since school is starting, i wouldn't have time to change it. >.<
might as well just get it done now.
its just a few clicks. XD

thursday will be having freshmen orientation camp.
next wednesday would be school orientation.
and the monday after next is the first week of school!!!
gosh.
my holidays just went off, flew past infront of my face.
saying bye bye to me.
omg!!!!!!!!
ya. and my hectic studying life is coming. sianzzzz.

yesterday as usual, went for syco practice again.
the conductor is like.... so fierce.
he's like a total different person from last week.
tsk.

but yesterday there's something to be happy of! =)
baby called me!!!!!!!!! =)
his watch is torn.
should i get him a new one?
ok. i'm done. buh bye~~~ blogshop again. haaha

2010-04-04T22:30:00.000+08:00

i'm back. =)
first. this is gona be a damn damn long post.
i'll try and keep it as short as possible. =)

that day went out with baby.
i took almost half of his day.
i'm contented already. =)
went to the beach.
it was like super packed cause its school holiday. =(
went to farrer park.
he wanted to collect some things from the teacher i guess.
yup so i down with him.
saw a few of his friends.
ya.
but i see them from a distance.
he went in to LJS to collect but i didn't went in.
waited for him outside.
his friends seems to be so curious about me. =X
ya. cause they didn't see me before. =.=

went shop shop at the mall there.
i went to a toyshop like some crazy woman.
dragged my baby in.
ya.
he went to see some robot thing.
all looks the same to me.
just that colour different. =X
ya.
took a pic.
but kind of blur. =(
after that i felt lazy to retake already.

yup. so took one only. haha.

cannot see right...

haha. wait till next trip.

might be on june holidays!

cant wait. haha

yup.

on my way back i start to feel abit of tummy ache.

and when i reached home i started vomiting like crazy.

was stucked in the toilet for 45 mins.

cause of vomitting and diarrhoea.

tsk.

i hate this! i swear.

after that i realised i'm down with food poisoning.

tsk. sian.

went to see a doctor.

it was near my house.

but it seems to far while i walked down strenghtless.

was so giddy.

had a golden jab. $68.

feeling better now. =)

yesterday went down to reservoir despite not fully recovered.

went to watch the SCO performance.

was real good.

my conductor was conducting!!!!!!!!! h'es awesome. XD

he saw me after the whole performance ended.

and omg.

he recognised me!!!!!!!!

i'm so touched!!!!!!!!!!!

ya. =)

saw his girlfriend. wow. HOT AH!

wanted to upload the pics.

but its super slow.

forget it. =)

shall blog shop now!!!

bye bye!.

to baby: sleep early ks. muacks.

2010-04-01T22:37:00.000+08:00

hi guys. happy april foll's day. =.=
i was dumbly tricked by TP.
they was saying that we got to bring diving gears to school.
due to the heavy rain recently, the banks of the reserviors burst. =.=
and it became so bad that we need diving gears.

ya. and it became like this.
see. there are even boats also.
of cause i wasn't tricked by this picture.
i was tricked by the post saying that they will send us the list of acceptable diving gears.
they sounded so serious that i didn't have the thought of april's fool.

ya.

they had another 2 pictures.
its kind of funny .
lols.
but its obvious that its edited.

today went down.
did a 45 mins tuning.
ya.
my tuning is super super slow.
and i seriously lose my focus damn fast.
gosh.
and i swear i felt abit sick after the 45 mins tuning.
drained too much energy i guess.
was feeling abit headache.

tomorrow will be going out with baby.
hopefully it will be a fruitful one.
i just bought a book.
its nice.
kind of addicted to it.
but i seriously have no energy to finish it today....

2010-03-31T12:59:00.000+08:00

can read?
i love this pic.
its saying that the girl gave the guy her heart.
but the guy broke it and walk away.
leaving the girl with broken heart.

he's such a jerk can.
i learnt not to be stupid to take out your whole heart for a guy.
half will do. =)

2010-03-31T12:17:00.000+08:00

yo yo ma is performing in sg SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Gala the silk road ensemble with yo yo ma.

WOO!!!!

i wana watch it BADLY!!!!

gona watch it with my mama. <3<3<3<3

but feel like going on both days!!

shall ask ying ying along to see if she's interested!!!

i kind of sort out my thinkings for the past few nights.

i'm to be blamed too for things turning out like that.

ya. kind of know where's my problem.

so i shall stop it.

i'll try all means to save it.

hope you'll appreciate it.

meeting jun yang tomorrow.

grandma FINALLY stop scolding me. =)

cause she is angry with my bro and i.

so angry that she didn't want to talk to us.

GOOD!!!

stay angry for as long as she likes.

i will love her to be like that too.

nobody will be adding oil on to fire when my mum is fuming.

i love it. <3

2010-03-30T14:57:00.000+08:00

now that i'm gone.

now that i'm so far away from you.

i hope you'll be happy from now on.
must stay happy ks. loves.

2010-03-29T10:27:00.000+08:00

where are you when i need you the most....

maybe our hearts are not in the same beat....

that's why we will never be like last time again....

2010-03-29T09:56:00.000+08:00

first thing in the morning.
i realised that this fri is a school holiday.
went to sms him to see if his free.
actually i know the answer myself.
he is never free.
yet i'm so stupid to ask him.
haix.
so he replied as i don't know which most probably is not free.
ya. i'm the stupid one in this relationship.

suffered so much yet i still cant let go.
i will stand up today and start forgetting bout all the tiny bits that we shared.

我受了多少委屈多少痛你知道吗?
不管你怎样对我我都原谅你.
我都接受.
可是为什么你就不能把你手头上的忙碌放开一天呢?
我不管有多忙碌我都尽量抽一天出来.
连朋友都不要, 都排第二了.
为什么你不能这样对我?
为什么我不可以有一段甜蜜的感情?
为什么凡事都是我迁就你?
连假期我都不能和你出去.
那我得等到及时.............

2010-03-28T09:27:00.000+08:00

friday.
a full day outing for me.
i went out at 10am and reached home at 11.
haha.

so that day i went to watchh nodame cantabile.

overall its quite nice and funny.

symphony music lovers you should really go.

cause you gona laugh of your ass at certain part of the movie.

theres a second part of the movie releasing in 17 april.
=( my school like starting alrdy.
but i'm still gona watch it. =)

the thoughts of school is starting seriously is killing me sia. haix.
gona have damn lots of activities.
will be having a camp on the 8th april.
eng school orientation will be on the 14 april. heng ah.
didn't clash with the primary school's syf. phew.
will be having AEL camp too on the 23rd april.
its a 24 hours camp.
and i was informed that the camp will run 24hours continuously.
which means.
most probably i would get no sleep for that day.
well done!
its compulsory somemore. =.=

yesterday basically i did nothing.
went to work from 1- 6.
skipped master class ystd. =x
cause i wasn't really well prepared and i don't want to be there to embarass myself !! =X
today. first thing.
went on facebook.
realised that baby is sick yesterday.
and he didn't even tell me.
i was asking him if he's hiding things from me.
yet he said no.
well done.
trust him not to even tell me that he's sick.
i'm disappointed in him already.
no more hopes for him.
most prob wouldn't be talking to him today.
i just got to cool down.
yes. its just a minor thing.
but if you don't even tell me a minor thing, should i trust you to tell me a major thing?

2010-03-25T17:38:00.002+08:00

the innocence in the angel is just like the innocence in those kids.

today.
hectic yet fun day.
looking at the kids having music lessons, sort of reminded me of my days in primary school.
especially the time when our syf is drawing near.
its hectic, yet fun.
the unity that the whole class have is not what i can see frequently outside.
their innocence in the kids eyes is what i like.
they are living such a carefree life now.
kind of want to go back to those days.
if only there is a time machine.........................................

if there is a time machine, there is somethings that i wish i hadn't done.
there is something i wish that i had done it too.
i will still join ensemble.
i will still join CO regardless of how regretful i am currently.
first, they let me get in touch with different kinds of music.
they let me know friends that are really nice.
allow me to know who shared the same interest with me.
i get to perform with different kind of standards of orchestra.
i've been to the best orchestra, i've been to the worst orchestra.
also i get to take different roles.
i ever sat on the best seat.
i ever sat on the worst seat.

some people have been saying that my life is interesting.
i disagree previously but now, i start to agree.
i tried what others may not have a chance to try.
i have nice instructors that bonds with me well.
i have an instructor that watch me grows.
cool eh?

if there's a time machine.
i will not go with the wrong guy anymore.
how much i hope now, that i hadn't shared my life with a bustard before.
i wouldn't have played so much in my psle and land myself in that school, that bunch of classmates.
ok fine.
i love the school.
but not that bunch of classmates.
if i time could go back, i wouldn't want to be friends with that bitch.
i wouldn't accept her "apology".

life is full of unexpected events.
who would expect myself to land in temasek poly with the course that i wants to go so much?
who would expect that i actually continued violin so long?
who would expect that i would be so close to a guy now that's once my ex.
so close that we tell each other so much stuffs.

what i want to know now, is the ending of me and him.
will we remain friends in the end or will we continue our journey.......

happy anniv baby....

2010-03-24T12:25:00.000+08:00

yesterday went to beach alone.
first thing cause i'm sick of being at home.
because my grandma like kept on scolding me for nothing yesterday la!!!!!!!!
ZZZzzz.
seriousaly i super fucking angry.
i wanted to bathe in her toilet what.
cause got mirror right.
the kitchen toilet no mirror right.
how to wash face!!!!
and she like started scolding.
so yesterday i was so anygry that i bought a mirror and i hung it at the kitchen toilet.

she can scold for anything.
even if my hair drops she also scold.
is either she don't talk to me or she scolds.

damn sick of her.
yesterday i went to the beach.
there is this uncle who is like ask me.
him: girl ah. why u here huh
me : walk walk lo
him: don't walk in such a deserted place lei. later got robbers huh.
if got uncle here nvm. i can protect you lei later uncle go liao how?
me : okok thank you thank you. (walk off)

i don't know what to say. but ya i know he meant well. so thanks lo.

have been blog shopping!!!!!!!!!
i saw alot of beautiful dresses.
but din buy.
cause i'm officially broke! =(
wait till next tuesday k!
and i will get all my pay once and for all! =)

2010-03-23T18:21:00.001+08:00

A small yet significant act.
Which not every couple get to do it frequently.
---> holding hands

2010-03-22T21:13:00.000+08:00

today is damn damn damn tiring.
cause last night slept late.
this morning like wake damn early.
wanted to sleep at 10 am.
my grandma scolded me for not bathing before i sleep.
after i bathe i went to sleep.
she start scolding for not waiting for myself to dry up.
is like wtf la.
i've got no time to sleep already la!!
and i got to get down for rehearsals at 11.
she just don't allow me to sleep.
by the time i dry myself i no need sleep already la!!!!!!!!!

so in the end i end up so sleepy.
went for rehearsals and met up with zr after that.
went to queenstown to get FBTs where we were almost lost!
thank god we have a mouth.
which allow us to ask!

i spent a total of $60+++ dollar in 2 days.
the 3 FBTs have cost me $33. o dear............
got to work for more money!!!!!!!!!

me and baby is getting along well again.
i hope we will stay like that.
i don't want any quarellings with him anymore.
and that guy!!!
FASTER COME BACK!!
i wana watch that jap music show!!!!!
i REALLY REALLY wana watchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

2010-03-21T23:11:00.000+08:00

hi.
its veen a long time since i last blogged.
to that person that is going to climb that whatever mountain today.
BON VOYAGE!!!!!!!!
don't miss me so much that you can't concentrate on climbing! haha.(jkjk)
ya.
so come back fast! if not i've got no one to go crazy with. haha

hmm.
received a phone call from TP recently.
i was inform that i have an AEL camp.
yup.
its my course camp.
got to fork $50 out for that camp you know!!!!!!!!!
ya. but die die got to go.
=(

2010-03-14T22:48:00.000+08:00

i'm alright i guess.
thanks to people who have been with me all these while.
i will try to straighten out my thoughts.
MIGHT mia.
so don't be surprised if you guys cant contact me.
i promise you guys that i will be happy from the bottom of my heart once the rainy days are over. =)

of course i hope it will be over soon............................

2010-03-14T17:13:00.001+08:00

Was almost knocked down by 2 vehicles that day.
They should have knocked me down.
Cause at least i wun b feeling so miserable now. Haix

You seems as though you are more hurt den me.
You seems as though you have lost your feelings.
But i cant do anything bout it.
I will try n get lost from your life temporary. Dun worry.

2010-03-13T11:10:00.000+08:00

yesterday went out with him down to synwin.
after that went to the esplanade library where i met my syco friends.
saw jie lin yesterday too!

the concert yesterday was rather nice.
saw mr lim at the concert yesterday.
was surprised.

to him:
i know you're busy.
but i didn't expect you to be busy the the state that you cant even spare a few minutes for me.
i asked you to change for me for once.
i asked you to manage your time properly so that i can have the little time of yours.
but all you tell me is you are only free on sunday morning.
i asked you if next week you are really that busy.
you said yes.
i don't dare to think how busy you are for the next 2 yrs of your jc life.
its like just the starting of jc life, and you are putting me aside.
what will just happen if we continue to walk on?
i don't dare to think how long more do i get to meet you.
its been 2 weeks plus.
and the previous time we met was only 2 hours.
when will we meet again.
during the day when i want to say break?
or is it during my birthday?
or worst still.
might not even see you till my birthday is over.
i remembered previously i said you can concentrate on your studies.
we can like talk once a week and we can meet up once in 2 weeks.
i said that before your jc started.
you said you cannot take it.
haha. but it seems that you are better of than me now.
weird.
you can totally give me cold shoulders for weeks.
not talking to me for more than a week.
not going out for 2 weeks. stepping into the third week now.
for your sunday morning.
i let you to have your beauty sleep.
what can we do in morning? go jogging is it.
i promised you in yesterday's sms that i wouldn't harass you.
that i will break with you after giving my last attempt of salvaging the whole thing.
it seems that you cant possibly change for me.
is alright.
maybe i'm having a unique boyfriend.
other guys in jc can go out with their girl once a week.
talk on the phone everyday.
i blamed myself for everything.
maybe cause other girls worth the sacrifices of their boy.
and i'm not.
from the start i warned myself not to sink in the realtioship.
you said why cant i love you like what i did to melvin.
now i did.
you're treating me this way.
thanks. seriously.
you said i seems to be giving up on you.
what hope can i carry on you now?
you can concentrate on your studies.
i will definitely do what i promised you.
i will leave you alone for the time being.
i hope you can think bout it for urself.
i have tried all the ways to save everything.
i know you're not mine anymore.
i know your new girlfriend is your textbook and your new school.
i can say nothing, but only to blame myself for being not understanding enough.
its my fault.
its never yours.
i'm a bad girl of yours for the pass 1.5 yrs.
i'm so sorry.
i will give you what you want most.
just let me carry the last hope.
hope that you will change.
by the end of april.
if things are still like that.
i will definitely leave you alone.
i will not harass you for the rest of your life anymore.
i will give you what you most wanted now.
which is to break with you.
cause i don't see the point in holding on to the relationship anymore.
cause i'm the only one that is making the effort to change.
and with my changes, you didn't even glance at me.
i hope you will be happy with the ending.

2010-03-12T13:14:00.000+08:00

That day i went down for syco practices.
and i did something STUPID that made mus laughed non-stop! =(

usually when i go for practices i will forget either my stopper, tuner, or my scores.
that day i checked all and happily went out of my house.
thinking that this time round i would have brought everything.
and when i reached there i found out that i brought my cello without a bow. =.='''
fuck.
went around my sections to see if they have extras.
in the end i went to one of the backstage crew to get it.
luckily he digged one out for me.
whatsmore that day there was a re-recording.
what will happened if i really cant find a bow?

yesterday went down to synwin.
omg.
i saw this fabulous nice violin case.
=)
didn't asked for the price.
BUT ITS SERIOUSLY NICEEEEEEEEEEE!
and i love that blue!!!!!!!!!!

and..... why must you keep it from me, telling me there's nothing happened?
i knew all the while what had happened.

today.
gona go down to synwin again.
than will meet ying ying for the concert!!
was looking forward to it at first.
but i'm not in the mood to go for concert now. =(

i know its not good for me to suppress everything.
bu i got to do it in order to salvage everything.

2010-03-10T13:33:00.000+08:00

YES!!!!!!!!!
it finally RAINED today!!!
had a damn good sleep cause its raining.
=)

first got to congratulate MX for getting to TP!!!!
WOHOO~ engine sku!!
anw. no need thanks !
i was still worrying how will i survive in the orientation without a person i know. lols.
ok. now got my dear mei xian with me!!!

first thing today.
read newspaper.
boring topics.
the headline today is about jack neo again.
somemore got top 10 girls that he have hit on. =.=
seriously this is not a hot topic anymore.
and i'm kind of getting bored.
anw.
he's really a jerk.
with a wonderful wife and 4 kids still want other girls.
tsk.
if i were his wife i would have gave him 2 tight slaps and filed for divorce.
hope there wouldn't be anymore jack neo stories tomorrow.
i'm kind of irritated by it already!

tonight there will be syco. =)
there will be re-recording for some bars. lols.
i hope my 4 strings wouln't loosen anymore.PLS!

i kind of start to miss changkat.
miss my sec sch days although i once hate it.
miss wearing uni although i hope to wear home clothes to school.
i miss studying with my besties and gossiping with them in class!!!!!! =(
my god. i miss so much things.
but like i said.
its all in the past.
as long as we have treasured the times we are together, there wouldn't be any regret.

what most girls want in a relationship is just attention from the guys.
but most of the time, the guys will either concentrate too much on the work, games or studies.
neglecting the girl and putting her at 1 side.
when they feel like it they will tell her "i love you"
when they dont feel like it they will just tell her "i'm busy. sorry"
sometimes sorry doesn't make any difference.
cause its just an empty sorry.

2010-03-09T11:38:00.000+08:00

this morning started of with reading newspaper.
omg.
i took like 1 hour to read half the newspaper.
ok.
after that got online.
started talking to jiahao and jordan.
and jiahao was blaming me for being "dao" at him yesterday la.
lols.
ps lo.
was rushing to work wad.
haha.

i started checking for my school's orientation schedule.
its starting on 14 april.
sian.
got to meet my enemies.
got to go there with sports attire.

aiyo.
i really really should get like FBTs .
but i'm really very lazy to get it. =(

got to go for violin tonight.
i HOPE i play well.
today is like testing scales and pieces + sight reading!!!!
ZzzZzzZzzZzz.
i don't want to get retained back just for practicing violin.

might go out with elena this fri.
which i hope we really get to go out.
it was like so long since the last time i met up with the siao zha bo .

2010-03-08T11:30:00.001+08:00

This post is specially dedicated to my beloved besties who ve been comforting me all this while when i'm down.

Thanks for comforting me these few days. Specially mus! Must ve wasted much of ur saliva. Haha. Ya. I will try to let down. But at the same time i pray hard for miracle to happen. I will try to b more understanding towards him. But thanks guys ! Seriously. N to mx n belle! Love u gals lots!!! Muacks! =)

2010-03-08T11:09:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was seriously super boring.
So i was practicing violin n cello for the first half of the day.
After that i slept,eat,n get on com.
Den went down to the park with my mum n bro.
Came back watch tv!
End of day. Boring right!

To him:
finally u asked me out yesterday. Thanks. But sorry got to reject u. I duno why i just dun feel like seeing u currently. I duno how to express my current feeling. But i duno how to face u for now. Sorry to disappoint u.

O. And today is zx birthday!
Happy birthday!!!

Not going out with that gal.
Cause she last minute cancelled.
Pro right!
She is the wan organising it but the one that cancelled it!

Sorry to burden u.

2010-03-06T21:05:00.001+08:00

Kind of tired.
So today went down changkat to tutor those sec 2.
One of my student actually from damai!!
Wad a coincidence.
So he start asking me "u from damai primary right!"
I was so shocked that i tot he actually stalked me.
So after chatting he told me that he is from damai too.
N he remembered seeing me appearing in damai numerous times.
But i seriously cant remember seeing him. Oops.

Monday gona work 5 to 10.
Hope can work at least 200 this month.
At least i'm able to bank in 100 n pass my mama 100.
But duno how to celebrate zx's birthday lei.
Think i got to go after awhile. :( ps.

Today did marking n recording.
Tutored this malay gal..
Omg. She is always day dreaming. Zzz.
But it was fun afterall.

I'm feeling abit better today.
=)

2010-03-05T20:41:00.002+08:00

We finally talk on the phone. For 10 mins. But why do i keep pushing u to study?? Wads wrong with me. I tot i've been waiting for u to call me. But now i'm asking u to study. Asking u not to call me anymore. Haix. Wad do i want actually. Now i got to wait very long for the next 10 mins call.....

2010-03-05T12:11:00.000+08:00

i'm finally done with the hectic day and now is a brand new day!
yay.
yesterday was seriously so hard to get by u know.
cause i'm looking forward to the end of my day the first minute when i get out of my bed!.
=(

yup.
so i woke up at 6.30 feeling kind of sleepy.
yup.
7. met him and ate breakfast with him.
supposedly to have extra lesson with mr tong yesterday.
but he got to do something so it was cancelled last minute.
so after teaching, i went home for a while.
meet up with him again @11.30 to go to a place.
ya. that place is where i've got my dear zx's pressie. =)
after that i went back to teach.
yesterday i was seriously not in the mood to do anything.
actually ah.
this whole week i'm not in the mood to do anything.
the only thing that i wana do is to hide under my blanket and cry.

yestersay syco was sectional.
omg. i was so attracted by the teacher when he plays u know!!!
seriously. he can turn an old disgusting cello to a damn nice sound cello la!!!!!!!
omg omg omg.
but ah. he like married more than once la.
so ya.
he is only me idol.
no other thoughts ok!!
and that austrailia choco is so nice!!!
i'm tempted to eat the whole box. =X

after that was talking to him on the phone .
after we hang up i immediately slept.
like in less than 5 mins i'm in my lala land already!! haha

yesterday i called you after my tired day had ended.
i didn't answer my call.
u didn't texted me what happened.
till this morning.

u : baby... sry... i'm really busy...
me : lol. nvm.
u : sry, cnt make u happy.
me : i'm happy . dun worry.
u : i doubt so.
me : i m. dun tink too much
u : hais... okay
me : why u haix?
u : i duno if u are lieing or not...
me : even if i m. even if u know i'm not happy these days it oso doesn't matter.

doesn't matter. cause u cant do anything to it.
i've put in all my heart and soul.
and i'm returned with being lost.
u said i don't care bout u anymore.
u said i gave up on u.
all these is cause by one thing : i don't expect anything from u already.
i tried coaxing you.
using the method he told me.
i told u i miss u.
never did i expect u to return this to me : y u always like that wan...
what else can i say?
all i can reply is : o. ya lo. haha
don't worry. i wouldn't be like that anymore.
even if u asked for it.
i will only be like that for that ony moment.
don't expect me to be like last time coaxing u when u should be the one doing it.
your coaxing will forever not last for more than 10 mins.
so forget it.
i asked you out that day.
you told me that you're aren't free.
i've got this reply several times.
but 1 day. i went out shopping myself.
i told u i was alone shopping myself.
u were disappointed.
saying why didn't i asked you out.
so after that.
i asked you out again.
you said. sorry. i've got parents meeting.
u thought i was sad.
but i wasn't.
i'm immuned to it.
i can do everything myself.
i wouldn't need your company anymore.
i'm not what i'm used to be.
my only last thing i cant do, you also cant help is that i cant let this relationship go.
how many days, weeks, months of tears i've been keeping.
its bursting out soon.
i know u are busy.
i don't want to burden you with my feelings either.
i have no choice but to keep it from you.
i don't know if its my problem or is it your problem in this relationship.
but all i know is i cant go down like this.
all i need is to let u go before i say break.
i want to make it to a point that i will not let a tear out of my eyes when i say : lets remain as friends.

2010-03-03T12:26:00.000+08:00

hmm.
seems to be better in violin.
have been playing for like 2 hours. haha!!!
at least most of the notes are in tune.
=)
i start to fall in love with LALO although someone said is boring. =(
i wonder why too.
haha. but at least i can play so much better than legende.
luckily i changed it to LALO in time.
if not i can forget about taking grade 8 this yr. haha

Recently have been hearing emo songs.
nice!!!
=)
and zx birthday is coming.
what to get for her ah.....
i lazy think leh....
can someone like think for me??
>.<

omg.
tomorrow gona be like a damn hectic day.
got to go down to damai for whole day and after that at night got to go syco.
=(
but i love going to syco.
but i might got to quit next yr.
cause.........
i duno how to say.
when school start i got 2 co's and got violin prac.
than still got to study.
so how.
alot of ppl advised me to quit 1 co.
ya. i know.
got to see how it goes first.
cause afterall i really really love being there alot.
its so fun.
and i get to learn so much things.

hmm. considering to take cello gr5 next year.
but ah....
i scared no time to prac lei. hahas.
but i duno why i just want to have at least 2 instruments that is gr8.
just have the sudden urge to do so.
BUT!!!
i will only take provided i can pass my violin with AT LEAST a merit.
heh. that's all.
got to prac cello next.
teacher gave me so many exercise to practise. T.T
help~~~~

2010-03-02T11:05:00.001+08:00

Ok. Joke of the day.
She happily walk out of SCH without her cello.
And she farted in the mrt so loudly that ppl were all looking at her. But she wasn't embarrassed. I was the one that's embarrassed. Omg.

Yesterday had recording.
Cool. Fun. But stressed.
Cause the conductor is like scolding everybody la. :( so fierce.
N wads more.
My 4 strings all loosen suddenly in the middle of recording .
N i got to start acting. Grr!
N the march performance not al get to perform.
Only selected due to the stage being too small.
So ya. Can forget about going already.
Too lousy to get selected.

As for me n him. Still in cold war. We did sms each other 9 msg.
I no longer expect things from him.
Isn't it good?
He wun ve much burden.
But why he seems to b so unhappy bout it?
I tink we are on the verge to.....
I predict by this year we will definitely break.
Its not going to b a smooth one this year.
That's all.
Toodles~

2010-03-01T12:51:00.001+08:00

ok.
1st march.
marks the end of CNY. =)
o ya. i think ystd was jordan's birthday.
so happy b-day. =)

ya.
so i think my plan is working now.
cause ya. he didn't sms me.
so neither do i bother to.
ya.
not sure if is the plan working or are we on cold war.
ya.
maybe cold war also good.
at least got a chance to be on our own
i will try not to miss him.
=)

so ya. early in the morning i went online
i saw charlene and belle
so went chatting with them like more than an hour.
and i was so busy with my fingers cause i'm smsing too.
haha.

and for my mixpod.
i know its an old song.
but its meaningful.
but i hate the design of the ipod.
i chged the size.
but instead of shrinking, it just cropped off the sides.
aiya. wadeva la.
cant be bothered.
miss my dad.
my dad went back to india.
haix
ok.that's all for today.

尽管没有你的日子多难过,我都会要紧牙根,自己走下去.

2010-02-28T21:27:00.001+08:00

To guys who have girlfriends. Treasure them before they leave u. They are fragile no matter how strong they are infront of u. Trust me.

2010-02-28T16:28:00.000+08:00

HAHA!.
hi people!!!
i just quarrelled with pig. =)
i'm crazy right. still haha somemore.
yeah.
like i said.
everything is my fault cause i cant make him happy.
maybe he will be happier with other girls.
and i might be so much better off without him. =)

anw.
guys, u know wad.
recently i've thought of alot of things to do with him.
all the romantic stuff.
yup.
i do miss him.
i want to see him at least once in a week.
but i know its impossible.
he got his jc life.
unlike me.
got nothing to do and give him troubles.
i really really wana see sunrise and sunset with him.
rainbow too. =)
cycle with him. XD
but its just............................
a dream.
a dream that will never come true.
=). so jas!! STOP DREAMING!!!!
HE IS BUSY.
ya.
so i told myself got to wait at least 3 weeks to 1 month before i'm gona meet him.
not too much right?
if too much than 2 months will do?
i don't need much time.
maybe just 1 hour in that 2 months?
and i will not be disturbing like what i did last time.
u sms me than i sms back ok?
you call me than i talk.
if not ii wouldn't call to bother you.

i can go shopping on my own.
now that i don't need you so much, your burden should be lighter.
sms once in a day and call once in 2 weeks will do.
see.
i helped you to plan timetable for me.=)
so in 1 month u just spend this amount of time on me:
call-30 mins each time. (x2)
sms-1min(x30)
outing-1 hour(x1)
so its 2.5 hours.
haix. still alot.
will try and cut down so that u can focus on your study.
2.5 is enough for u to study 1 topic.
haix. sorry. cant make it to less than an hour. cause the outing is already 1 hour.

we 've met up last week.
so our next meeting will be 15 march.
once in a month!! =)
maybe just go out to have a meal??
can save time.
like that you can study more.

i rmbered you saying that its good enough thst you send me home. cause you could have spend the time studying.
i told you took it seriously.
and i will prove to you that i'm really bothered by it.
cause my heart is pierced by thousands of arrows when i heard that.

i have so much things to say. but its beyond words. so forget it.
i will swallow it and stomach it.
i will try to lessen your burden from now on. =)

2010-02-25T13:29:00.000+08:00

yesterday went out with my dad.
he walk super super fast that i really cant catch up.
and i end up walking home with a wobbly leg.
and we are like walking super fast continously for a few hours.
and only get to sit when we're in the mrt.
plus the hilarious weather made my day worst.
cause i'm like having headache at the end of the day.
after that brought stella to kumon to work. haha

dad is going back tomorrow.
just don't want to see him go . =(

going down damai afterwards.
the weather just made me felt like staying indoor.
=)

anw.HAPPY ANNI PIGGY!!!

2010-02-23T11:17:00.000+08:00

time flies.
in a blink of an eye we are reaching march.
papa leaving for work again.
sob.
he's going back like this fri night.
can't bear to let him go.
gona miss him like super lots.

omg.
1st march is coming!!.
got to do recording soon.
but i haven gotten any scores!!!
anyway.
decided to quit cc.
not going back there already.
mostly is cause of that bitch.
i don't wana have anything to do with her as i've graduated.
cause seeing her reminds me of what she did to me.
anyway once school start i doubt i have the time to go there.
so ya. quit. good choice.

yesterday went for the body checkup.
the checkup is actually fast. but its the waiting that is slow. =.=
so kind of waste my time.

o ya!! LIYING!!!
go wenshan's facebook.
the boy proposed to her le!!!
super romantic can!!!!!!!!!!

tomorrow going chinatown with daddy. =)
love daddy!!!!

the 2 men that i'm gona love this life :
DADDY!!!
piggy <3

2010-02-20T22:54:00.000+08:00

today is a busy day.....
=)
went out to bedok inter with mum this morning.
came back.
bathe prac violin eat.
proceed to kumon.
marking worksheets.
omg. my eyes almost went blind.
esp for math.
SO MANY WORKINGS!
anw. i still love being there. =)
tutor a small cutie in english.
the way he speaks english is super super cute can!!!!
just that he writes too slow. makes me bored.
got shift for next mon and wed night!! wohoo~

i hope piggy is really ok today.

2010-02-19T23:10:00.000+08:00

kind of look forward to tomorrow.
gona work at kumon tomorrow.
was once a student there.
now i'm a tuition teacher there. =)
but.
tomorrow gona have my violin exam. sadden.
haven really memorised my scales.
cause it just doesn't get into my head.
=(
and i feel that.
grade 8 is more stress than me taking my 'o's
cause its more expensive.
once failed.
gone.
but i just hope i can get this done and for all.
cause i don't want to get bugged by this grade 8 in my whole teen's life.
its stressful!!!

i love my ipod. =)

2010-02-18T19:32:00.000+08:00

YO YO!!!
these few days have been shopping alot alot!!!!
yesterday went down to bugis with mum and dad to shop.
=)
got a rubber casing for my ipod!!! XD
today practice violin like crazy in morning.
afternoon, grandma said she was feeling unwell.
so i kept my violin and took her to the doc with mummy.
after that went to tampinies to claim my phone.
and we shop shop a while there.
=)
o ya.
yesterday bought a remote control helicopter!!!
but its for my bro.
anyway, he's in camp now.
so i own it first!!! =)
=)
ok.
got to prac violin again soon.
XD
OMG!!! i got a mini safety box!!! =)
so COOL!!!!

2010-02-16T11:23:00.000+08:00

yesterday wen to TM to walk.

lots of shops did not open .

after that went to ehub with my family to watch move.

true legend.

nice show.

but its like killing people.

so i don't really like the front part.

because there is so much blood flying everywhere which made me wanted to puke.

and OMG! i finally got my IPOD!!!

waited for like 2 years already!!!
best thing
i just fork out $60 and my dad pay the rest!
yay!!!!!
=)
bro is going camp tomorrow.
best.
shoo shoo shoo.
let me have 3 days 2 nights of peace. XD
but my mum is the one that gona miss him!
she didn't even bother missing me when i'm in camp! =(
she is like so happy when i'm off luh!
nobody harass her. T.T

2010-02-15T10:58:00.000+08:00

yesterday went to 2nd aunt's house
was boring because my clique is not there yet.
i'm seriously rotting before LIYING came.
=(
food was damn nice. cause i only ate the one that is cooked from my dad.
=)
as expected. people started asking my grades and the couse i've entered.
and now they are all reminding liying about her o lvls this yr haha!!
dun worry liying.
i went through all these last year also. haha!!!
anyway.
yesterday's reunion dinner didn't turn out to be a happy one for my bro.
it seems that he have offended those aunties.
omg.
got to prac violin real soon !!!
going for audition again this sat. =(
can cry lors.
seriously hope that i can take grade 8 this year!!!

2010-02-14T10:44:00.000+08:00

have been a few days since i last blogged.

tuesday.
brought my bro to fetch my dad.
saw this "women". i think she changed sex.
cause i saw her adam's apple.
and the way she speak is super manly can.
eww. feel so disgusted.

wednesday.
omg. i had a vigorous exercise with my dad la.
first went to mustafa.
which my dad got scammed by the cashier.
he bought a total of 58.50.
so he gave like 100 to the cashier.
and got 1.50 change.
the most stupid thing is that both of us didn't realise till we reached henderson road on the taxi. -.-
ok. reached henderson road.
the stupid taxi driver didn't bring us to the place we wanted.
he dropped us at some place which we don't know.
so we walked like super long la to reach that bakery shop. -.-
after that went to chinatown to buy knifes and went to find dad's friend.
than finally go home.
was super tired.

thursday.
went down to RP with damai for their rehearsals.
stephanie and I was laughing super hard cause of something. lols.

friday.
went to changkat to return the syf uniform.
was super hell pissed.
but nvm. forget it.
so i went to find mr chan, mr ho, mr ng, mrs ang, mr sng, and mdm tan.
after that had lunch with mdm tan and baby at han's.
after finishing our lunch i went out with baby.
took a bus and saw that smelly fish.
EEWW!!!
she sterned at me with her fucking eyes which made me wanted to dig it out and stuffed it in her mouth.
my mood was simply destroyed by seeing this fucking fish.
some guys said she's pretty. I PUI AH.
by taking CO's money is call pretty???
the beggars outside looked so much better than her.
at least they beg for money and not POCKET it.
at least they say thank you after people gave them money.
not like that fucking fish who backstab people even the person done nothing wrong to her.

Saturday.
ate my reunion dinner with my family.
watched new year countdown.
my mum screwed my bro. lols!
serve him right!

sunday.
ate macdonald's with dad and bro.
collected ang bao money!!!
=)

ANYWAY. wish all readers a happy chinese new year and a happy valentine's day!!!!

2010-02-09T10:29:00.000+08:00

HI PEOPLE!!!
received a good news from syco yesterday!
there's a super urgent concert coming up for us on 13th march!!
we are participating in the "Singapore Entertainment Awards " this year at The Float @ Marina Bay !!
omg. super super cool.
gona see damn lots of pop stars as we are their accompliment. but not for all.
heard the show is gona broadcast on tv!
but i think only people with starhub cable tv are able to watch it.
i haven't gotten the scores yet.
but gona do recording during 1st march.
we are using minus 1.
i'm super super excited!!!

yesterday's shi mian mai fu was terrible.
super diff. =(
but managed to play la.
can skip any prac le. cause i scared not enough prac.

dad is coming back today! yay!!!!!!!!
love my daddy!!!

i love my baby. don't ever take it from me. =)

2010-02-08T12:37:00.001+08:00

SEE THIS!!! a touching story. i CRIED watching this.omg.

i just wana hug him and tell him i love him when i see this video. =X

2010-02-08T10:27:00.000+08:00

i'm rotting at home................
seriously.
grandma's isn't in good mood today. so good luck to me.
today gto to go syco.
gone through shi mian mai fu myself.
so i hope its alright?

yesterday was chatting with elena through sms.
so ya. both of us are going to work and buy an ipod together.=)

dad's back tomorrow!!! =)
fetching my money and daddy babk. haha

went for my bro's investiture today.
kind of short.
he was chosen to be a CCA leader.
when he didn't even practice the violin.
LOLS.
wa the principal.
quite manly.
haha.
most of the teachers there actually recgonise me. haha.
they were asking if i'm ex damaian.
yup i am!! XD

2010-02-06T13:39:00.000+08:00

HI HI!!!
got my long wallet yesterday!! yay!!
but sad. its not from wallet shop.
cause their stuff are too expensive.
i'm done with baby's valentine pressie too. XD
not going for the concert today cause i'm still coughing like mad.
sry mei xian!
baby not going too.
he's not going cc on sunday. should i go?
think better go luh.
meeting my syco's SL.
haha.
got to copy things from her you see.
but go there sure not able to practice my own things.
=(
next monday syco practicing shi mian mai fu! damn.
and i realise, after next monday's lesson, there wouldn't be any lesson till march! yay!!

dad will be back next fri! time to shop again.
i fell in love with shopping!!!!!!! XD
and i wana watch movie- ting shuo.
anyone free to watch with me. =(

don't wana ask baby to watch with me la.
don't think he will like all these.
aww.
this week cant meet baby le. haix.
my bad.
shouldn't have sick. stupid me.

anyone received the confirmatin letter from poly???
where's mine!!!!

2010-02-05T12:42:00.000+08:00

yes!!! got my pay today.
walao. that day i did OT lei.
then no extra pay. =( sad luhhs.
ok. i'm gona see the stupid doctor again cause i'm still sick. Zzz
i want to get a sweet medicine from her leis.
all those med she gave is like so bitter can.
hope i can recover tomorrow.
got to watch concert you know. =(
how to watch like that.
so disturbing.
err.
feel like changing pressie for baby.
but he like got so big reaction. =(
he don't want me to change so i don't change lo.
i'm gona shop and splurge today!! wohoo~
shopping myself. XD
lalalala~

o. and yesterday's sectional was rather alright.
=)
went through shi mian mai fu.
ya ya. people say it's a nice song to hear.
but its super difficult la.
=(
i'm coughing like mad now.
got to go! byes~

love my babyboy

2010-02-03T21:22:00.000+08:00

i'm still coughing!!!
argh.
i just cant stop.
cancelled my cello class today due to me coughing too much.
doubt i would be going down to damai tomorrow.
cause i don't want to spread it to the kids.
ok.
my mummy took my favorite new yr cd to work.
she said she would return me after work.
the funny part is... she did return me.
the empty casing.
she accidentally left the cd at her player.
i super super super LOVE her you know.

o o! and there's something i want to ask.
does people who goes accounting take a place as treasurer in any club or cca before?
if she/he does.
does he/she pocket the money before?
so if she did it before.
can she still go for account courses?
will she count the money to her pockets?

i love my babyboy.

2010-02-02T21:12:00.000+08:00

Hi ppl.
i'm back.
baby started his stupid jc.
why the hell cant jc start in april too??
at least he wun be so busy with his school work.
heard from him that his class only got like 4 pathetic girls.
and he said no chio bu.
he sad. but i happy!!!
kind of want school to start.
looking forward in knowing what poly life is like.
to think back, time really flies fast.
i remembered the first day of my secondary school was seriously fun.
just that have got no friends. =) good enough.
a few days later, got to know zhong rong.
and a week later get to know zi xuan and diana.
so after that stella joined us due to some gal that she's not happy with.
so this particular girl really isn't something nice.
cause she backstabbed people and toyed boys feeling.
and as a school's co treasurer she actually used the money.
tsk tsk tsk.

ok. yesterday i went to syco.
is like........ ok. as usual. i was hun-ing inside.
well i got to know what the song is really about you see.
and my cello teacher is always saying not a problem in the pieces.
but when i am playing in the orchestra i see big problems.

this morning i actually helped my grandma to fry chinese new year cookies!!!
o o! and its delicious. . yum yum

supposingly to have violin lesson today.
but with my sexy voice and non stop coughing i better not go.
not good to spread to my teachers.
haha.
tomorrow afternoon will be having cello lesson.
gosh didn't practice.
good luck=)
ok shall stop here.

i hope friday could reach earlier, so that baby can sleep more.

2010-02-01T11:52:00.001+08:00

i'm fucking sick right now.
but i cant possibly get a mc on first day of sy la. =(

2010-02-01T11:33:00.000+08:00

yesterday went out with baby,
supposingly going to CC. but we didn't go in the end.
basically cause baby didn't feel like going.
took a couple of pictures.
went to beach and played.
after that we went to the arcade at ehub.
collected 36 tix. so went to change for a bottle of bubble. XD
went back to the beach to blow bubbles.
its like i'm reliving my childhood!! =)
waiting for the rain.
did drizzle abit but did not rain in the end.
lols.o ya. went to subway with baby.
i did not eat cause i simply don't like it.
=) but i took a cookie from baby despite me having sore throat. haha!
o o !! and baby is finally wearing PINK!!!!!

he took this pic like from my bag.

ya. but whatever it is. its fun.

just that we cant play like this so often anymore. =(

love baby!!!

bought a new bag pack.
and had my organiser yesterday!! wohoo. gona get my long wallet and the other half of baby's pressie next week. =)

o!! DAD'S coming back soon!!!! i miss him. =)

i'm fetching him!!

heard from mum that he's gona give me $$ as a reward for my o's !!!

i'm fetching my money and dad from airport. XD

today is the first day of sy.

2010-01-29T22:49:00.001+08:00

Abit tired today.
Went out to watch hachiko!
Like finally get to watch la.
Super touching. But din cry.
Duno why. :)
Hmm. My tummy n head dun feel right today. Duno wads wrong. N the sy pieces. Really tough. :(

2010-01-28T19:50:00.000+08:00

i'm back.
my mood today isn't that good. haix. my bad.
went to teach. tried to fake a smile out and also tried to control my temper.
did managed to smile but vented my unhappiness on those kids.haix. sorry kids.
i hate myself for being like that.
i hate it when problems occur over and over again.
anybody had relationship that has so much problem. haix.
it might be my problem too.
sorry for being sian when u didn't coax me.
everything is my fault.
should not have expected you to coax me.
sorry. i'm not sure if my method of solving my relationship's problem is right.
but i think this is the best way i can think of.
whatever he can't do, don't expect it anymore from him.
but slowly i realised that i have no expectations for our relationship already.
where's my happy relationship? where's my perfect boyfriend?
i'm searching for you up and down but never been able to find you.

am i giving up on our relationship?? why do i have such thinkings of finding another guy? i will try to salvage our relationship

2010-01-28T13:52:00.000+08:00

ok. i'm super tired today. wanted to play com i dozed off cause i was super tired.
rushing down to damai soon as lesson is starting at 2.
ystd worked at peral river. sucks.
never ever work in a restaurant. they are not going to release you on time.
yes u have lesser things to do, but you got to do it quick.
for banquet. more things to do but can take your time.

and can he coax me when i'm mad?
haix. he just don't coax me when i'm mad at him!!
haix. is it me failing to do my part?
or is he waiting for me to coax him when i'm pissed of.
haix.
yes. got to remind myself.
previously is not to expect much from him.
i will change it now.
not to expect ANYTHING from him.
haix.
ye. bear bear bear, bear with it.
i hope i wun burst out so soon.
he will never knows how i feel or want. cause he doesn't read my blog.
haix. so forget it.
i'll see how long can i tolerate.
problems are coming up and i'm bottling up, now solved.
is this suppose to be the way?
and... that day is coming. i don't expect any surprises from him . haix.
just take it as its my fault for everything.
sometimes i really hate being in a relationship.
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
i want a guy like this!
- make me happy when i'm down
- coax me when i'm pissed at him.
- be a gentlemen and let me in the bus first.
- taller than me.
- make some time for me. i don't expect everyday.
- make me look forward in dating with him and not end up with disappointment.
- surprises for me at times?
CAN'T ALL THIS BE DONE?!?
but i know you'ii never get all this. so its ok.
i'm not expecting things from you anumore. trust me. i'll get immuned to what you are doing. this is just a guide for me to find my next boy if there's chance.

2010-01-27T09:28:00.000+08:00

ok. hie.
was busy for the past few days, that;s why i didn't blog.
so today i received the my results of the courses i'm going to.
and yup. i went into aerospace through TPCO and went to environment design through JAE.
yes. was super pissed at first cause i didn't know i got to check the JPSAE portal.
i tot i was tied down by the co for 3 yrs by going to the course that i can get through JAE.
and they said i was out of the JPSAE at first. now i went to the jpsae n check and i got in. =)
whatever it is, i'm super happy now. =)
going to syco orientation tonight. =)
got to work soon . bye. =)

2010-01-22T09:44:00.000+08:00

first. let you guys know about my audition.
my audition. choice piece i did rather well cause i wasn't nervous yet. but for my sight reading it seriously suck like don't know what.
seriously. there is like bass, alto and trble in one passage. =(
got the alto clef it was still alright. when it comes to the treble clef i seriously went blank la.
but nevertheless.
i was called up and was told that i got in. but another bad news came.
the prac in tp actually crashes with the syco's practice. =( which is like monday night.
and this crashes with my violin lesson too. argh!
but if i go to tp, i would be able to go for aerospace! i'm stuck in the middle of nowhere now. =(

yes. and i'm going to work tomorrow. i nid my pay for his pressie! just work work and work. =)
i know what i wana buy already!

yesterday went to teach damai.
i'm almost voiceless now.
and my throat seriously hurts.
went to downtown with mus ystd and had our lunch there.
ya. so ystd was his turn to embarass himself with that flying pepper.
well. i realise both of us can never go out together.
cause one of us will surely embarass ourselves. lols.
but quite fun afterall.
so he drove me there. his driving is not that bad afterall. lols.
and i learn a new thing. i'm gona smack his car door.
to ensure its tightly closed. =)

somehow... i don't know how to get out of it.

2010-01-20T10:57:00.001+08:00

going for the tp audition today.
which is like at night 7 pm?
didn't really prac much. just don't feel like practising.
anw. i'm still not nervous yet leh.
previously i was damn nervous like one week before that syco's audition la.
weird me.
yesterday went out to bedok interchange to take passport photo.
ate cupcorn. yum yum. but the corn wasn't fresh. =(
after that i went to tampinies.
supposingly wanted to buy organisers for myself to remind myself things.
found a few that i like. but's like super x?
wanted to help my mum to save money by not spending so much. ya.
so eventually didn't buy.
and i went to arcade to play the cacth toy game.
and i'm SUPER ANGRY LA!!!
ii've already caught the toy! twice! on a different machine!
and when that clipper sways, my toy flew of that clip!!!!!
damn. how do people catch those toys????

ok.. daddy will be back on 9 feb.
miss daddy. =(
cause i want him buy things for me. =) oops! haha. jk la.
mummy say cnt buy. cause i got to buy a laptop for poly whioch is very costly. =(
and my mummy broke her promise! she said if i manage to get to poly she would get me an ipod.......
sob...
i want an ipod.... i got super lots of things to buy la!!

shopping list!

new bagpack
gel eyeliner
organiser
baby's valentine's day present.
Nebo's member card.
arcade card!!! (if not i cant play games) =(
LONG WALLET FROM WALLET SHOP!!!!! (cuz i don't have enough space to put cards in my current wallet)

VERY IMPORTANT!
not that important YET!